I thought I better sit down and tap out my thoughts considering I have so much time on my hands and I wanted to write something now so I could read it in 12 months time and remember how fucked up this time was for all of us in the world.
Firstly, I am one of the lucky ones so far, who has managed to keep a tiny grip on a job and yes I am not getting my normal shifts but I am still employed and am super grateful for that. Today the death toll in Australia is 14 and bound to get many more so I'm wondering when we will actually go into full lock-down to stop this bullshit getting any worse. The sooner the better I believe.
Secondly, because I am forever looking for love I decided that maybe in these tough times that there would be many people wanting to meet someone special so I jumped on Bumble and Tinder last week to see what was out there.
Thirdly, I should have just punched myself in the face before I downloaded the apps because the Corona Virus has changed NOTHING when it comes to people being dicks when it comes to dating apps.
Surprisingly I did swipe on about 4 guys on Tinder and matched with them all and all of them messaged me within a few moments of matching, (which is pretty unusual as you normally don't even get one message from a match let alone 4!)
I had some funny chats with a couple of them and had a laugh which is always good and after a few days of chatting on the app I exchanged phone numbers with 2 guys so we could chat via text.
One guy was from Brisbane and he was funny and witty and close to my age and the other guy was from the Goldy and seemed like a cool guy, into photography and the beach and we seemed to have a few things in common which is always a bonus, he was a few years younger than me but that has never bothered me before so I agreed to meet him for a walk ensuring we kept our 1.5 metres apart when we met.
On the day we were meeting I woke up with a bit of a cough so I text him to let him know and said maybe we should postpone because I didn't want to risk anything. He agreed and made a comment that he hoped I hadn't coughed all over my mum (who I had seen that morning) and for some reason it annoyed me because I assumed he was serious and it made me flinch when I read the text. I sent back a bit of a curt text asking if he thought I was stupid and of course he then sent back a few texts telling me that he didn't mean to offend me. But for some reason this must have put a sour taste to the connection because after another few random texts he ghosted me.
I then realised that the guy from Brisbane had also ghosted me after not hearing back from a text I had sent him the night before and so I promptly deleted Tinder and Bumble and the 2 guys mobile numbers because I was angry with myself for thinking that anything would have changed with those apps just because of the Corona Virus!
What I wish would have happened is that both guys had either picked up the phone and actually called me to make sure that the texts were not taken the wrong way, or had just text me and said "Hey it was nice to meet you but I'm not feeling this anymore, take care". But of course that seems too hard for guys to do these days, why? What is so hard about texting someone you have never met to tell them you aren't feeling it? I just don't understand it. And maybe these guys weren't right for me romantically, but we could have just been friends and we could have had a laugh together during these crazy times but for some reason guys don't seem to be able to pick up the phone and actually talk to someone to get to know them and as soon as they get a whiff of something that doesn't meet their expectations they ghost you!
So, it looks like I will be self isolating by myself with the cats for the next few months and hopefully the kids will wanna come and hang with me at some stage but if any of my friends hear me say I'm downloading dating apps again please send me a virtual punch in the face and remind me of this little experience so I can start cleaning the bathroom instead which is far less painful!
I hope everyone is coping in this scary world right now and if you want to talk just message me!
Katie xx
